Hi, I am Cormac68. I have terminal lung cancer. I was diagnosed in July/ August 2019. I refused radical radiotherapy about 2 to 3 motns later. I was severely traumatised during the whole period and afterwards. My mind is now clear and I believe I can make proper decisions for myself. I have since had another CT scan. The first carried out in August 2019 showed my tumor was 14mm. The secoond CT scan carried out in Febuary 2020 and I was give the results early March was the tumor was 19mm. I was told the increase was small. I have in the last 5 to 6 weeks been contacting the cancer nurses. In my last conversation I told the nurse I wanted to have an appointment with my onociligist. I have to say the onociligist only has one surgery at the hospital on Mondays every week. The remainder of her surgeries are carried out at a hospital in Edinbrough. I have a video appointment call with the Consultant Respiratory Physician she is the same doctor I first saw back in July/Auhust 2019 on Tuesday afternoon on the 8 September. My impression is the doctor will use the fact I did not have the therapy when it was offered it is why do I feel I want it now. It really that simple. My mind is now clear and I can make the correct decision. Not make such an important decision while I was  severely traumatised. It is my right to change my mind regading treatment.