Hi, 

I'm 35 and Around a week ago I found a 2cm lump in my breast. I finally saw a Dr on Wednesday who found it immediately, but depending on the angle I sit the lump disappears/gets smaller.

The Dr said she's not concerned it is anything sinister but also doesn't know what it is so has referred me to the breast clinic. 

I don't know if it's related, because stupidly I have never checked for lumps before so don't know how long it's been there, but for 5 or 6 years I've had unexplained shoulder pain same side, around my period. It's excruciating, like a pulled muscle, for around a week I can't use my right arm. Afterward, there's a regular dull ache. When I mentioned this to the Dr she seemed to think it was a separate issue as she said we'd deal with that another time. 

I suffer from anxiety and I'm really, really struggling right now. I can't help but think the worst. I have 2 small children so I'm trying to keep it together in front of them but it's so difficult, I can't stop crying. I haven't gotten out of bed since I got back from the Dr's on Wednesday, I feel like a failure because I can't pull myself together long enough to parent.

I've told a few friends but all I get is "you'll be fine, don't think about it ", they don't understand how much it is worrying me or why I can't stop thinking about it.

I don't even know what the point of this post is, I just wanted to be around people who understand the wait.