You didn't have to move in with your dad it's your choice what you do. Have you tried macmillan or Marie curie.
Have you thought of having a word with brother and sister about sharing the load so many hours each at least. Don't get pushed into doing anything you don't want to do.
Hope you get something sorted soon good luck with whatever gets sorted.
Best wishes.
Billy
P.s hope others will join and give you more ideas.
I wonder whether a "half-way" situation is possible? Would you be able to rent a room close to your dad, so that you could visit and care for him but not be in that environment 100% of the time?
Lordy no wonder you want to run! Why are your siblings not supporting your dad equally with you? You sound very depressed in my opinion. Speak to your GP. Say what you've said here. if you feel you can't go through it again then you need to make that point over and over again to anyone who will listen. Your mental health is just as, if not more, important as your dad's physical health. Selfish is a judgemental term. I prefer Self Care.
I tried to look after my mum while suffering as you are, and I ended up being unable to care for her properly and mucked up her meds, and she ended up more ill and back in hospital. You don't want that to happen because that'll make you feel even worse than you do already.
I used to say to everyone "unfortunately I'm not in a position to care for her because I suffer with mental health problems myself". All of the team responsible for your dad's care should be thinking about his welfare first. You should be thinking about your own welfare first. There's no team looking out for you!
