Hi there ...

Be kind to your self, and tell yourself, what ever you feel at any time, it's o.k ... everyone is different .. when I was told my mum had died, I felt a scream deep in my stomach  .... yet I was in hospital , waiting room ... I didn't cry at funeral, felt she was saying she was right by me ... she was also my best buddy, and we were always together .. couldn't understand it, but went with it ...

A couple of years later, it hit me like a thunder bolt ... I went to a safe place, and screamed ... till it felt o.k again .. there's no time frame, there are no rules ... just know right now, your brain is probly protecting you ... it's early days ... my heart goes out to you ... Chrissie   x

Thank you, I can see other people being sad when ive done facetime or heard their voice on the phone.

Just not sure how to feel, if I should feel anything right now.

One of his friends text saying she misses him and cries everyday which I find strange as she didnt speak to or see my partner every week, oftern would go weeks without a message or call..

I guess we all deal with loss differently and in our own way