So sorry to hear of your situation, I can’t imagine having all the stress and anxiety of waiting for a diagnosis for so long - you’ve been going through this for 9 months?! I hope you have support around you at home. For me, the wait was worse than hearing that I had cancer, I felt strangely calm after the consultant told me and I knew what I’ll be facing. The waiting and not knowing anything for certain is so hard, I really hope you get some answers soon. 

Bex x

God, don’t! you’ll start me off!! Yes definitely, I’m here for you anytime you want to talk, I’m so grateful to have found this forum, sometimes it’s easier than talking to family because you don’t want to upset them. We’ll get through this! x

It's mad I've deleted my Facebook and Instagram and now sent you a friend request on a cancer chat. My world is totally upside down. I promise I'm not usually a wimp and fully intend to give it everything once I know what I'm dealing with. I hope you've got lots of support. X

Just read these posts and wanted to say thank you, don't feel alone. I've been so convinced that my 'lump' would be a cyst and after the mammogram & ultrasound yesterday the dr told me to prepare for it being cancer - the biopsy results may take 5-10days. Since getting back from hospital yesterday my mind is racing... the not knowing if it's spread or not is so distressing. From the ultrasound, one of the lymph nodes looks 'to have build-up' around it.... don't know what that means.... 

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Hi Berks, I don't come on here any more but I saw your message and had to reply. I know exactly how you feel and the terror of the situation and waiting can feel totally overwhelming. I was in your shoes more or less exactly one year ago. It was a multifocal (more than one) bc, in one lymph node, thankfully it was a grade one and after a mastectomy it was sent for genetic testing which meant I didn't need chemo. I had radiotherapy and I'm on tamoxifen and Zoladex (puts me into a menopause because im only 41) and all of this is manageable. I look back and think some of the best advice is not to google too much, trust in the doctors, and don't expect too much from yourself, this is hard and it's okay to not be 'strong' about it, I certainly wasn't. 

I hope it makes you feel better if I tell you that I'm back at work, I'm a PE teacher so I'm back doing all my sport, I'm organising a staff party and getting on with normal things again. I feel so lucky but I'll never take normal things for granted again.

take care and I really hope things work out for you

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Thank you so much for your reply - it really means a lot. Your positivity is infectious:) 

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