Hi my name's Bev and 15 months ago I lost my mom . I say mom but she was more than that she was my friend , my confident ,my everything . She was the most caring , amazing mom ever. We didn't has a family have much time to prepare for her passing. She hadn't been well for a while and trips back and forth to the doctors got not a lot of reaction. They said she was dehydrated, maybe the onset of dementia but no tests where asked for. On the 13/07/18 I told my boss I needed to go home after a call from my daughter. When I got to my moms the sight that was waiting for me was so distressing. I immediately phoned the ambulance. She was admitted to hospital. On the Saturday she was taken for a CT scan . On the Monday we were told she had pancreatic cancer and had maybe 3/6 months. But sadly for us she passed on the 22/07/18 . I immersed myself in the planning of her funeral and after that the inscription on the headstone. Anything to distract me from the truth. Even now 15 months down the line I've not really grieved. I've cried like I am now but inside I know I've not grieved the way I did when I lost my dad . Sorry if this has gone on but I think I needed to write it out xxx
