Just been diagnosed, BC - triple negative

Hi there,

I joined the group a couple of weeks ago after my scan and biopsy and found it useful and supportive reading what everyone is going through and their advice whilst we all face the C word!

I've now received my diagnosis and plucked up the courage to say 'HI!' :)  I'm still reading up on all the booklets i've received. A strange feeling really counting the days down to your appointment like a holiday without the excited feeling and now coming home with loads of booklets and not holiday brochures.  i feel strange that i have a sense of relief but a strange relief as I do have cancer and not the all clear.  Does anyone else have these mixed feelings?

I've been diagnosed with stage 2, grade 3 and triple negative.  Well from my understanding, i'm waiting for the confirmations to all come in the post.  I remember them saying 18 weeks chemo, 5cm tumour, lymph nodes, masectomy, radiotherapy....

I still feel very detached and like they are talking about someone else as i dont feel ill.  I was hoping to be pregnant :( so feel very sad tonight that is unlikely to happen now with my diagnosis and that i'm 42.

So mixed feelings all around tonight. 

Mich x

 

 

  • Hi Carla 

    Aww thank you , so sweet of you and thanks for thr reassurance. I tend to keep things in (which I know isn't healthy) but now my pot is bubbly over! I tear up at so much now too and can't watch gory things too much as they add to my weird *** dreams. I'm listening to my relaxation videos on u tube which seem to help. I guess in a way I need to get used to feeling down and crying as it's normal and not a bad thing.

    Yeah one of our machines is under maintenance so I'm 1830 this eve. Can't complain really as I'm still in sick pay and rest of my department on furlough. 

    Hope it goes well today Linda good luck for your last one

    Davia, we'll be thinking of you and sending big hugs. 

    Ladies, hope you are all well and had a good weekend. 

    Xx 

  • Thanks Michele I'm finally finished whoop whoop! Am going to celebrate with a cuppa tea and a cake lol tonight when my lot are home we will crack open the prosecco.

    I hope yours runs smoother today Mich and yours goes ok Carla.

    Davia I'll be thinking of you and sending lots of love your way

    Karyn I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and sending you lots of love.

    I hope the rest of you lovely ladies have had a good weekend and are keeping as well as can be.

    hugs linda xx

  • Hi Davia,

    Is it today you get your results? I've been thinking of you all day. 

    If will power has anything to do with it then you'll be fine. Let me know how you are when you feel ready.

    Sending loads of love,

    Sue xxx

  • Hi Ladies, 

    Thank you all for thinking of me yesterday x 

    It wasn't good news, unfortunatly the cancer is back, it is in lymph under the skin, I have mamo and ultrasound on Friday and they want me to have a pet scan of whole body, then its back to chemo to treat it,

    I am trying to get my head round it all, weirdly it is near on exactly a year to the day I was first diagnosed. 

    I feel empty at the moment, the hardest thing is to hear I will be back on chemo again. I sobbed in the Dr's room, felt a right plonker, but I have to get my big brave knickers out and drag them on again, done it once before so will do it again. 

    Karyn, I am praying you get good results today, I will be thinking of you x 

    All you lovely ladies keep well and enjoy the sunshine today x 

    Love and hugs xxxxxx

  • Hi Davia,

    My heart sunk when I read your post but you are strong and you will get over this. You will beat this, it's just another hurdle which isn't fair after all you've been through. 

    You will cope with chemo and in a few years time, you will look back and be amazed and proud of how strong you've been. 

    Sending love, hugs and prayers to you

    Sue XXX

  • Hi Karyn,

    I'll be thinking of you today. Let me know how you get on.

    Sending loads of love and virtual hugs.

    Sue XXX

  • Thank you Sue, that's lovely post. Sending BIG HUGS back and lots of love xxxx

  • Davia I'm so sorry, I was so desperate for that not to be the case. You've done it before and you can do it again, I just wish you didn't have to xx

  • Hey Davia 

    Aww cancer that #@£#%@!   I'm sorry to hear that, sure it must feel all numb and like not happening to you at the mo. You are a fighter though and have helped me out so much with my worries and support with my opp and rads so I know you will get through this. Like Sue said just another bump in the road but in the end you'll give the two fingers to those buggers!

    Take it easy today and look after yourself. Can your sister visit you? I know I could do with a big sisterly hug, mine works in A & E so won't be seeing her for a while. 

    Sending you big hugs! We are here if you need to chat. 

    Xxx 

  • Good luck for today Karen, sending you hugs and good vibes xxx