Hello everyone, I have just been reading about the fear we all have waiting for that first gaenecology appointment, although my mind is at ease knowing everyone is seen in around two weeks.
I did not go to the GP about any problems in that area on this visit, I went about a large lump in my breast which seems to have appeared overnight, of course I waited to ensure it wasn't my hormones/period and shortly after my body had settled check to see if it was there, it was so I went. It was also the opportunity to say the way I have been feeling over the past Few months, exhausted daily, hungry, swollen tummy, bowel habit changes, irregular insomnia, light spotting in between periods and pain in my lower back. I wanted some hormone tablets to stop these really bad PMS symptoms.
The GP examined my breast lump and then my tummy, no pain on either, I Felt relieved. She then said she would take a swab, I thought nothing. Upon examination, she asked me when my last smear was, which was last September, she asked if I was told that I had a large red lesion on my cervix? To which I replied no. Then I remembered that I also had a case of bacterial vaginosis back in Jan time (something ive never had) and had it looked at during examination, so I was certain this was new. The GP sent me for bloods and referrals about these issues.
The other problem is the fact that on the last smear, I tested positive for HPV, the letter stated I would be recalled in a year to repeat. So I completely understand what you are all going through as I am the same myself, for the last two nights I have insomnia, I'm ok drifting off but I'm waking after Around three hours and can't get back, my mind is a thousand miles an hour and I don't want to discuss it with people as I feel like that's all I'm saying. I am a single mum to three, but thankfully they are tweenagers and well trained so I do have Help at home on the days where I need to sleep for an hour or two before I can even consider making dinner as I'm wiped out.
My appointment came through on the phone fast, it was within the two weeks and immediately I panicked, it is next Friday the 16th, I also have my breast appointment on the 15th, but it's a nice end as I will be 37 on the 18th so hopefully weight will be lifted.
At the moment, it's all I can think about, I am a very positive person and usually very active as I used to be in the forces, I have never felt so alone and stuck. I am sorry to vent on here but I can see I'm not the only person in this situation and I really hope you are all ok, that your results were clear. No one talks about this stuff as we feel we sound paranoid, I really just want to have my whole womb removed now, just be done, I have finished my family and been sterillized three years ago. If anyone would like to offer advice feel free, I'm just so nervous about the appointment, if it will be painful etc... I am scared about the biopsy... Thanks for reading my moans. Take care everyone. Xx
