Thanks so much for your reply. I often feel, we’ve been through so much that nothing else can ever be as bad. The grieving process is so difficult even after all of this time. Sometimes it creeps up on you without any notice or trigger and then the tears come. I agree with you that some memories, and not happy ones, just can’t be forgotten but that’s just a “normal”, albeit unwelcome, process. It does make me so much more sympathetic toward people who are experiencing loss. It’s a horrible learning curve though. 

I can’t believe the regime you are undergoing - that’s plain exhausting! No wonder you are struggling. Gosh, I hope you have a supportive network......and chocolate. Don’t forget the treats!  I fully understand sometimes you just want to be left alone though. Big virtual hug to you and wishing you the mental strength to get through your treatment. 

Oh sweetheart. I didn’t realise you were so young. My heart bleeds for you ....and your mum. I really hope your friends fully understand the trials, difficulties and sheer hell you are going through at the moment. You need their support - and laughter - to keep you going. 

I’ll be in touch. Just let me know when you’re nearly done. I remember when my daughter had completed radiotherapy. She started crying whilst walking across the car park at the end session. I thought she was in pain. In fact it was the utter relief of not having to endure any more radiotherapy that brought on tears. Needless to say, that started me off too! 

Lots of love xx