Feeling terrified

Hi all, 

 

After being referred to the breast clinic yesterday they found a couple of areas of concerns. I had a further mammogram after some markers were placed along with biopsys. They said it looked very likely to be cancer. 

1 larg mass and 1 slightly smaller plus a suspicious looking lymph node in my arm pit. Needless to say I'm already racing ahead to saying my goodbyes and dreading being told its already spread. I couldn't feel the lumps they could see but had been having pain and some swelling on and off since before Christmas.

Go back on Tuesday for the results /plan. I'm only 44 and have 2 young girls. I'm absolutely at my witts end, feel sick  can't stop crying etc. I don't think I can face it tbh. How did you all get so much strength to get through it and any words of encouragement would be much appreciated as so far only my Mum and Hubby know.

 

Bronty x

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    Hi Bronty,

    Welcome to the forum,although I'm sorry for the reason you're here.

    The way you are feeling is perfectly normal. In the early stages there are so many uncertainties, that your emotions are bound to be all over the place. Don't worry about crying, this is a good stress reliever, so just let the tears flow for now. You will find that once you know a little more about your diagnosis and treatment, you will settle down and look at this more positively, as you start to fight back.

    I lost both of my parents to cancer and have had 2 bouts of breast cancer myself in the past 9 years. When my mum had it 21 years ago, people died of cancer. I find that there has been no comparison between the surgery, treatment and after care that I have had and, that which my mum experienced. It is good to see that people are now living with cancer instead.

    Do come back and let us know how you get on on Tuesday. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Thank you both for your kind supportive words it means a lot to be able to speak freely here. Only my husband and my mum know I've been to the clinic. I'm avoiding my friends until I know for sure xx
  • Hello bronty, both jolamine and Dbird have said it all.....treatments today are so advanced....don't give yourself a death sentence ( although we all know that feeling) focus and your family and take each day as it comes, one day you will be ok and strong the very next a withering wreck, it's all normal.....keep dipping in and out of the forum....your amongst friends here, you can say exactly what your feeling, we will all have had the same thoughts.....keep us posted Hun....it's really not the end....it's the beginning of getting everything back on track xxxx

  • Thank you and you are right. I need to be positive and trust in the new amazing treatments available. Thank goodness for research xx