Looks like we both got the same news yesterday, but for different parts of the body.  I stared into space last night when I got home from the hospital.  I went on line with phrases from my diagnosis summary and sat and stared at those too.  Couldn’t really take it in.  I got some sleep but woke early with it being the first thing I thought of and stared into space again.   

I know I’ve got to go through it.  I’ve been on the other side for my best friend who died nearly 15 years ago.  She said it was always good to talk to me as I talked about it with her as if it were just flu.  She said that so many people didn’t know what to say and she just wanted to talk.  I remember talking into the early hours when she came to stay with me when I was taking her to her appointments at the Royal Marsden.  We’d met at work some time before and it turned out to be a blessing because I lived just 5 mins drive from the hospital and to come and stay with me was a relief to her.  I was with her when she was given the diagnosis and through many of the appointments from then on.  I know she’d be doing the same for me if she were here.  

So, here we go.  A difficult journey awaits.

Hello gus (and hello again calley).  I am guessing your use of the word "unsettling" is an understatement.  I will curb my natural inquisitiveness and let you both tell us just as much as you want about your diagnoses and planned treatments (when decided).  Because I like to know that people have support I tend to ask questions but perhaps  I should say tell us as much or as little as you want but don't be afraid to tell us lots if you want to do so.  Everyone handles this differently and in their own way.  Annie

The long version of where I’m at is in my “introduce yourself”....which for those of you who don’t know as I didn’t that you can access by clicking on my user name calleyh on the left hand side of the screen.  New to all this..... I just couldn’t face typing it all again.