Hi. I’m 64 and had a colonoscopy today and have been diagnosed with a malignant polyploid tumour of about 35mm diameter. I wasn’t expecting this as when my regular bowel cancer test came back in at the end of August the doctor organised a blood test to check for bowel cancer and it came back normal. When I told the surgeon who did the colonoscopy this he said something along the lines of that GPS often didn’t fully understand the test but the fact that it came back normal was good in that maybe things hadn’t spread.
My problem is that I have no immediate family and have just moved to Scotland where I haven’t yet made friends. I’ve socialised but have only met a few people a few times. My two oldest friends are in their mid 70s and both have significant health problems and I haven’t told them as they have enough to worry about apart from the fact that they’re hundreds of miles away.
I have only told one other friend but she has lots of problems and haven’t told her the latest news. She too lives hundreds of miles away. When I told the nurses today of my predicament, they said go on the internet to find some help. I tried ringing Macmillan but couldn’t get through. I am a strong person but I need some emotional support if nothing else. People ask about family. But I’m alone in the world. There is an extended family but they have significant problems and I’ve only met them a few times. They don’t know me and I don’t know them. Maybe I can find an online friend or two. I saw my best friend through cancer before she died. I did all the things you’d want a friend to do and was glad to do it. She was a wonderful person. Is anyone there who can suggest where to go to get some help. I dread going through all the treatments but I could cope with it if I must. But it’s the simple things of making me a cup of tea and sitting and talking to me that I am frightened I won’t be able to find. I’m just plain frightened.
