Hi this is my first time here. Obviously I’m not here because I want to be, just like all of you I’m sure. I am here because today I find out if the tumour in my mums bowel is malignant. The doctors say it almost certainly is. Also there is a shadow on her lung and although they won’t investigate that until after the bowel, none of this sounds good. I don’t know how I feel right now. I’m writing this as I’d write any message so don’t think anything is sinking in yet. All I know is whatever happens I’m going to need people to talk to. I have no siblings & my parents rely heavily on me. Therefore knowing this forum is here is comforting. Thanks for reading.