hi I'm new to this site and this type of thing all together but I feel that it might help me to let things out a little to people who understand. my husband is just 48 and in Feb 2017 he was diagnosed with stage two squamous cell carcinoma in his neck primary in throat we were so shocked as he is a non smoker and only enjoys the occasional drink and keeps himself reasonbly fit ( we have been lead to belive it is more common in smokers and or heavy drinkers) we had put his tiredness down to the fact that he worked hard and long hours (if only ) so he( but we say we) started on a journey of surgery then 8 weeks chemo and radio the radio was terrible it closed his throat and he had a NG nasal feed tube in for 7 month as he could not swallow at all in November we were told it has spread to his lung so more surgery to remove third of lung then more surgery to open his throat ( which has made some improvement but not great ) only to be told in december that on the scan it has spread to his other lung then he started this new immune treatment but after four months we have now been told that it has had no effect and the tumours have double in size and there are new smaller tumours . so they think because of how agressive it is he has just a few months . he has been amazing never complaining or asking why me he has faced everything head on with amazing strength. but now I feel broken I hold it together for him and the kids but the times I am alone the tears will not stop so I hope this helps me to just get it out and read about others like me and gain some strenght that i will need to face whats to come and sometimes just to have a good moan. my heart goes out to you all who are living with this vile disease