Don’t know what to do

Hi

i have been diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer about last November. At first my husband couldn’t of been more supportive but over the last few months he has distanced himself from me spending the odd nights away at his moms.  I do think he still cares for me but don’t think our relationship which was very strong is going to survive this cancer and my terminal ness. 

I have two children from a previous relationship and although he has said he will be there for my youngest who is 13 I feel that he might not really want the responsibility of her care or of my eldest whom he does argue with and has said is old enough to support self she is 18.

We don’t have much money and are in council accommodation under my husbands name and as well have been given 3 months to 18 month with possibly a extended life with ongoing chemo and radiotherapy. 

I am very afraid for mine and my children’s future I don’t know if it would be kinder all round to buckle up and leave my husband who might find that a relief from pressure of care, and try some how to make a home before I pass away for my children but if anyone has any ideas or support or suggestions I would greatly appreciate as I’m so terrified of the future for my family.

i know I paint a terrible picture of my husband but it’s not true, if cancer hadn’t of happened we would not be here or in this predicament if I had not been told to finalise my affairs and dragged him round with me to set up funeral care etc he might not of berried me in his head and Hart now all that’s left is the waiting for the end and  feel like I’m taking up peoples time hanging on desperately to life trying to solve the impossible and smile while I do it

Maybe I’ve changed too and we’re no longer working because we have different futures we’re both looking at please help if you can I’m so afraid 

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