Hi deanyg,

I am sorry to hear you are facing a difficult time in your life, I know it's hard. What's your treatment plan going forward? I believe you can get through it, whatever it is.  I am a faith filled person and here is the prayer I turn to in times of great fear, I hope it helps you.

“Do not fear what may happen tomorrow. The same loving Father who cares for you today will care for you tomorrow and everyday. Either he will shield you from suffering or He will give you unfailing strength to bear it. Be at peace then and put aside all anxious thoughts and imaginings.

St. Francis de Sales”

Please keep us updated on how you are doing.

Laura x

Hi deanyg, You have had terrible news, even by the standards of this forum. Fear is utterly normal. I don't know how old you are, or whether you have good support from family and close friends. And financial issues may or may not be one of your worries. I'm not religious like Laura, but am personally fairly philosophical about dying, because it happens to all of us. But would I stay so serene if I received bad news following one of my checkups? I don't know. Everyone on this site understands your fear and will be hoping that you have many years before you. Cancer survival is a roll of the dice. My odds, for example, are really good but I could still get really unlucky, and throw the equivalent of three sixes, in the future. And for other people, like you, the roll of the dice could go the other way.  I wish you every strength. xx Harry.