Hi Evie I am so sorry to hear about your mum. I understand what you are going through and how frightening all of this is for you. My own mother was diagnosed with 2 different cancers in October 2016 and she died 3 months later. She never got the chance to have any treatment at all. There was talk of chemo and surgery and radiotherapy but events escalated and there was nothing we could do to put the brakes on. I had envisaged a difficult year of treatments and then a 6 month recovery period and my mother being well and enjoying her life again as before. All I can say to you is try not to think of all these worries that you mention, try not to think of how you might cope without her, try not to think about how you would pay rent. It does no good to dwell on these things. You will make yourself sick with worry. Take one day at a time. Today is today and tomorrow will come tomorrow. Today you just deal with today. Do all that you must do as a mother to your son and while he is at school attend to your studies and be a daughter to your mother. Better that you do not trouble her with your worries as she has enough of her own. Try to be strong and above all stay positive. Do not allow negative thoughts to creep into your mind. I was determined to always stay upbeat and positive with my mum. Morale is a huge factor with anybody who is ill. Keeping their spirits up and their mindset positive has a proven physiological benefit as well as psychological. If you crumble then she will. If ever I felt overwhelmed or tearful when I was with my mum I went off the ward and had a private cry in the corridor and returned to her when I was back in control of myself. My mum really had no idea how ill she was. I am sure she would have completely given up if she had known. I am nobody to give you advice but I do know that every single day that you have with your mum is a blessing and generally speaking people do not even realise what the highs are until they reach the lows. There are good days and bad days. Sometimes more good than bad and sometimes many more bad than good. You will get through this. Look after your son and your mum to the best of your ability and importantly take care of yourself as well. Because, without you, the whole house of cards collapses. So take time for yourself, be with friends and family and unload to them, try to eat well and try to get regular exercise and rest. It is emotionally draining to be a carer and to also be a parent to a young child. It stressed me out. I had a lot of late night baths which relaxed me and helped me to sleep when my anxiety was right off the chart. Information is king here so Wednesday and Thursday will change the landscape for you this week. Think positive. Ask questions at these meetings and take notes. It's hard to take everything in when you are so emotionally involved. You can be overwhelmed at these appointments and find that you were in the room but you did not properly listen. So I found that if I wrote down my questions in advance of the meeting and then wrote down the key points that the doctors made then afterwards I could refer to it and know that I had not missed anything. Some appointments I even recorded the audio on my mobile. My whole heart goes out to you & your son and your mum at this time. Dig deep now and be strong and stay positive about this. I hope that something or other that I have said will help. You do right to reach out to people. You need support right now and I know this is an awful situation where your best friend is your mum and you cannot lean on her now. Your roles are reversed for now and she is leaning on you. You can do this. You probably think that you can't cope with this but you can. Already you are coping. Take care of yourself. Danielle