Hi, i haven't looked at this site for years so its probably a bit of a cheek to turn to it now but i'm waiting to see the surgeon who operated on me for breast cancer in 2011. i finished all treatment and have been clear since then but following a routine mammogram in January things seem to have changed. I was called back for further mammograms and an ultasound guided biopsy. At this point i think i was still quite calm and confident that nothing was wrong and this was just a precaution. Even after concerrns were expressed during the biopsy i still didn't really worry, feeling certain all was ok and it wouldn't happen again.
Since then my surgeons secretary has tried to call me daily for the last week and a half. I ignored the calls but finally answered,, at this point i wished i hadn't. Every day that she tried to contact me they had made a provisional appointment for me. i'm seeing him next week having said i couldn't make it before then. I could but i think i was in shock/denial.
Last time i had a biopsy, which turned out to be benign i got the news via letter. i didn't have to see anyone. I'm trying really hard to be objective and not let the worry overtake everything but i am starting to feel overwhelmed by the very real possibility that i have cancer again. I haven't eaten since Thursday night and am feeling very, very sick.
How do you cope with the prospect of going through everything again having left it all behind? i used to work in the NHS so know how things work and friends who i still have working in the hospital feel, like me, that its likely i have breast cancer again given the effort made to contact me. No one is telling me not to worry.
This is probably a bit of a ramble but hopefully someone will understand what i'm trying to ask.
