So, my mum has cancer. We were hoping for a few more months at least, but now it's clear she maybe has a few weeks. She's going home to die. I'm going to help out. I'm going to ask work for time off. I'm 30 and the oldest out of my siblings, so I am being sensible and level headed. But truth is I'm scared and devastated. My mum is all I really have. My dad left and we don't talk. I don't really know my family. So when my mom goes, I'll be alone. I'm jsut sad and I'm really going to miss her. I feel like she never saw me achieve anything of worth and I'm ashamed of myself. I don't even know what I want or what I'm looking for but I guess I just don't have anyone to talk to so I joined this site on a whim.