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Hey.

My name is Matt and I am 14 years old.

Ever since 2014 when my mom was diagnosed, I was alerted about cancer. Unfortunately, without going into detail, her breast cancer escaped to the brain and killed her in April.

And I know of a 17 year old, children (online stories), celebrities and not very close relatives who have passed away from it or have it.

It has came to my attention that pretty much every aspect of modern day life causes cancer. The slightest lump I have which may be a spot alerts me which is a great thing that I am aware. But I can't live my life like i used to. I have a pair of headphones i having to sell because of  a cancer warning and I don't like eating most foods because its genetically modified. Everything around me I have to rethink because cancer stalks my mind. It's destroying me and I can't live like I used to; watching through my own eyes the horrific treatment would be enough to finish me, but the death my mom has just made me want to avoid cancer, even curable, at all costs. 

I have donated loads of money for cancer several times and raised charity money too and I pray we find a cure before the 1/2 cancer chance stalks my family or even me.

Regards.

Matt

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    Hi Matt, It's awful that you are worrying so much about cancer at only 14 years of age, but I understand completely. I recently nursed my step-mum who died a few months ago and it has made me paranoid. I really hope that you have good support around you, from family, friends or teachers. Have you considered counselling to help you cope with the loss of your mum and the fears you are facing? It does seem like every day, we are all bombarded with stories of celebs getting cancer or scary statistics on tv about how likely we all are to get it at at some point. At 14, you should be worrying about your favourite football team losing or a girl you like at school and it's really sad that you aren't. I really hope things get easier for you. Take care of yourself xx
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    Hi Matt . I've just joined on here . I think you are amazing for accessing help ,on line is good, but there's people out there, when yr ready, it's really just like on line, u just aveto go for it xxx I am wondering who you live with? Whos there to talk? Lumps n bumps can mean nothing...usually do...xx hear from u when u feel like a chat?

     

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    My son was as is very aware of gmf chemtrails pesticides etc and he checked every label and tried to stop us having all kinds of foods. Then I got cancer and realised some of what he was saying made sense and now I'm reading labels too I think you have to try to live as healthy and active lifestyle as you can I'm sure your Mum would be proud you are being so proactive about your body but she would want you to be enjoying your life too.
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    Hello matt

    i  totally agree with the above replies & that grief councelling would be good for u as after all you are still grieving for your lovely mum. 

    I agree that cancer is an awfully scarey word. It has only been since I joined this forum that I could say the word or read it. As for your fears which are well founded, I think a good councellor could help u. Life is precious. 

    This is a quote i have on my kitchen cupboard

    'You can't change the past, but you can spoil the present by worrying about the future'

    Sending u my best wishes x

     

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    Hi Matt and so sorry to hear about you mum

    cancer is a terrible disease and impacts on not only those who have it but loved ones, friends and distant collegues.

    however the big c is reducing in its notoriety and although it still kills, there are also, like me, many survivors on here who live to tell our tale and help others.

    its people like yourself that help support and fund cancer research along with raising awareness

    as a survivor lumps and bumps that appear in my body, bring me to an immediate stop. But now that only happens for a second or so, as underneath (and before I was diagnosed) I am a normal human being and normal human beings get lumps and bumps.

    cancer does not define me anymore. I am conscious of it and have changed my lifestyle  and mental attitude to limit my exposure to cancer ( as much as I can), I now try to help and educate.

    keep up the good work, but don't be so afraid of cancer, it does not always kill and you have a wonderful life a head of you.

    vatch

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