Hi Matt . I've just joined on here . I think you are amazing for accessing help ,on line is good, but there's people out there, when yr ready, it's really just like on line, u just aveto go for it xxx I am wondering who you live with? Whos there to talk? Lumps n bumps can mean nothing...usually do...xx hear from u when u feel like a chat?

Hello matt

i  totally agree with the above replies & that grief councelling would be good for u as after all you are still grieving for your lovely mum. 

I agree that cancer is an awfully scarey word. It has only been since I joined this forum that I could say the word or read it. As for your fears which are well founded, I think a good councellor could help u. Life is precious. 

This is a quote i have on my kitchen cupboard

'You can't change the past, but you can spoil the present by worrying about the future'

Sending u my best wishes x

Hi Matt and so sorry to hear about you mum

cancer is a terrible disease and impacts on not only those who have it but loved ones, friends and distant collegues.

however the big c is reducing in its notoriety and although it still kills, there are also, like me, many survivors on here who live to tell our tale and help others.

its people like yourself that help support and fund cancer research along with raising awareness

as a survivor lumps and bumps that appear in my body, bring me to an immediate stop. But now that only happens for a second or so, as underneath (and before I was diagnosed) I am a normal human being and normal human beings get lumps and bumps.

cancer does not define me anymore. I am conscious of it and have changed my lifestyle  and mental attitude to limit my exposure to cancer ( as much as I can), I now try to help and educate.

keep up the good work, but don't be so afraid of cancer, it does not always kill and you have a wonderful life a head of you.

vatch