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Petek
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Hi I'm new on here ,I'm trying to hold things together but my world is in turmoil, my dad was diagnosed with acute myeloid/R.A.E.B leukemia 6mths ago which has rapidly got worse he is now chronic lymphocylic leukemia and losing his fight ..he's had so many hospital stays so many set backs and so many complications an he's fought like a soilder but he said he's tierd n has had enough of fighting ....my dad has been my true inspiration through out my life the thought of him no longer at my side is just too much just too much...I'm struggling to come to terms with this ....I haven't been able to see him for 4 wks now due to me having pneumonia in my right lung again and the risk of passing on infection on to him..I'm not the healthiest person with asthma and copd to contend with but I need to be with my dad ...we have planned a special Christmas this yr knowing it will be the last one we have with my dad ,Christmas is so close but still so far away we are hoping dad can just fight alittle more just one more special day one more memory...one last hope....so many strong people on here fighting the fight for life,I wish I had half your strength ..thankyou for reading this I was pointed to this site by my Gp I was told it could help me come to terms with my dad being I'll..

 

Petek

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    My faith in humanity too has been helped dealing with the death of my father.  So much love and support from friends and family...and strangers like ourselves that help in the healing and unkown.  Don't feel bad for your feelings as you explained...one moment angry at people, next moment another emotion comes flooding in....that is exactally how i felt.  Let these feelings pass and in a better frame of mind, you will come to understand them.  I am just know coming to terms with my emotions.  Going through the process from dads diagnosis ...through his suffering...then the part of death which i did not think i would get through.  My body and emotions shut down to get me through the trauma of it all...i have been told that could happen.  Now i am dealing with them and trying to heal slowly, one day at a time.  Wishing you all the best..you sound like a strong person!!  Your dad must be a great man to have raised a wonderful son!!

     

    Pam

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    My dad is near the end right now and the pain is too much to bear.  He has been a fantastic dad I just cannot cope

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    Lisa1717 my thoughts and prayers are with you.  This is going to be the hardest thing for you to go through.  Do you have  strong family and friends support available?  I have just been through it and it is gut wrenching but you will get through it...i promise.  I know there will be no words to comfort you right now ....i am sure your feelings will be raw.  Hang on tight and be there with your dad.  Sending you hugs and support.  If you have any questions i would be glad to help...so scary for you..i understand.

     

    pam

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