hi petek  ..like the stag picture, so sorry to hear about your dad, hard isnt it. it wont be long before others join in the chat,  the  ask the nurse section you can click on to the left is good too,i hope you get well enough to see your dad soon.

Hi Petek,

Welcome to this friendly forum and glad Cococat has allready replied to you. I can understand how you feel about not being able to see your dad as I had the same problem but for differnt reasons. My dad who lived in Calgary, Canada had been in and out of hospital for three years or more. As I live in the south east of England and my wife has health problems I could not get out there to see him or to offer support to my brothers and sisters. Just like your dad, the medics told the family to expect the worst several times but dad proved them wrong time and time again. No one knows where he got the strenght from. He passed away about this time last year. 

I hope you soon recover from your infection and can get to see him again. Sending kind thoughts to both of you, Brian.

Thankyou for your kind words I'm so sorry about your dad..I use to p!ay guitar when I was a lot younger ,I bought myself an electric guitar recently but I just cannot seem to play a single cord anymore ,I wanted to right a song for my dad but I just carnt anymore....I put the picture of the stag on as it reminds me of how strong my dad was and how magnificent he is...both me and my daughter adore that song too it always brings a tear to my eyes but the words are so true.....I hope I can find strength for my dad ,I don't want to let him down he is My best friend .....Petek

hi petek,  have a good click on all the pages and headings, youll soon find your way around. and you write that song, and soon as you can,  my thought is, write it sooner than later,  it is said at the end of our own lives through cancer or not,     we never regret what we do,  only what we didnt do

Hi cococat,thankyou ,I will try ,you are right life can be full of regrets,I don't want this to be one of them .

Petek

Thankyou Brian ,I really appreciate your kind words,I'm amazed the strength of people in this forum,the kindness is beyond belief ...I see humanity in a different light...I'm already finding it easier to chat to people but its easy when its not face to face as I seem to just crumble in front of people then get annoyed with myself.....I have a lot of regrets as regarding my dad some of which i will never be able to put right ,I don't know if this is normal to feel this way or not but its eating me away inside ,I'm focusing on the NOW but when I'm alone its different  ...is it normal to feel mad at everything ,and everyone one min and be a wreck the next ..I don't understand what's happening to me ..I'm usually the strongest person anyone would meet but not anymore...

Petek

Hi Petek,

I belive we all feel a bit like you describe  for we are all on a roller coaster ride of emotions. Its been brought home to me just how powerful a force emotions are for we have no real control over them. I have lost ten relatives to cancer plus having had prostate cancer myself. I found it far harder for me watching someone I loved slowly fade away than it ever was as a patient. As a patient at least I felt I had some control over how I felt but as a carer, there was nothing I could do.

As regards the past you are right to concentate on the now; your dad knows you love him  I would advise to try and make as many happy memories as you can for these do help me so much when I feel their loss.

It is a great forum to be a part of and its so much easier to talk to people we may never see,than it is to family or friends for we can open up about our fears and feelings on here in a way we cant with family. I have been a member of this forum for about 4 1/2 years now and have made contact with some amazing people during that time.

Please keep in contact and once again am sending kind thoughts your way, Brian.

Thankyou Brian,I carnt imagine how hard it has been for you,and I will keep in touch .

Petek

My heart goes out to you.  I lost the most amazing man in the world to me..my father..3 weeks ago.  You will find many compassionate and understanding people on this site.  If you have any questions at all I can surely help as i went through it all.  God bless

pam

Thankyou pam, 

Im overwhelmed how compassionate people are and even when they are fighting their own battles.. This site is amazing i never knew  how many people are and hsve been affected by cancer or ave lost a loved one to cancer... My faith in humanity has been restored and my love goes  out to everyone on here..  Thankyou for yoir kind words pam. 

Petek