Welcome to the forum Keith, though so sorry that you need to be here, and for your great loss.  How sad that Ann went through so much over the last few years only to get this horrid thing again.  (I am in a similar position to Ann myself as you will see if you read my profile, but am okay at the moment.). 

Of course you aren't functioning properly, you are in the depths of grief still, and that must be allowed to take it's course.  There are other lovely people on here who know exactly how you feel right now, myself included, though my partner did not have cancer.  I'm sure some of them will be along soon to chat with you, meanwhile please keep posting if you feel the need, there is always someone ready to listen on here. 

Take care, thinking of you, Hazel xx

Thanks Hazel,

I did indeed read your profile, and you certainly have been through alot.

As my first post i didnt want to go into alot of detail but just nip at the edges of the whole cancer trip.

Cancer runs through Ann's side of the family, over the generations and she did say that she was going to get cancer.   

I will keep posting when i can..thanks again Hazel

Hi Keith, 

I'm so sorry to hear about your wife. It sounds like it was an incredibly difficult time for you and Ann, and continues to be for you now. 

I hope that being on the forum helps you to talk to others who have been through similar situations and so you know you aren't alone. 

Also, apologies that my reply just really can't convey how sorry I am for you and only offering platitudes. I truly am thinking of you though x