Hi everybody. Just found this site and thought it might help me by chatting to somebody else in the same position. I am 66 yrs of age. I was married for nearly 40 yrs. Four years ago just before Christmas I lost my husband to a massive heart attack. It was the first day of our Christmas break and it was horrendous trying to get my husband back from abroad. Anyway two years ago this March  I lost my sister to bowel,pancreatic cancer. She was my closest friend not just a sister. Christmas 2014 I did the usual screening bowel test that gets sent to me. I received another one then a phone call to give me an appointment for a colonoscopy. I was in hospital and had part of the right side of the large bowel removed. Since April I have been on chemo. I finished on the first of October and had a scan three weeks later and was given the all clear. I can't fault the speed and care that I have received while being diagnosed. The staff at the Heath hospital Cardiff and the velindre hospital where I went for my chemo were wonderful. The only down side is that I have been left with really bad pins and needles in my hands and feet. I am dropping things all the time and my legs have been left very weak. I have had a few falls because of this. I  am an outdoor person and love to go for walks with my little dog but unfortunately because of the state of my legs I have  not been able to do this as I am afraid of falling. I cannot sleep hardly at all as the pins and needles seem to be worse in the night and also my ankle is swollen nearly all the time. I wondered if there was anybody else who was suffering with this after chemo and if they can suggest anything that might help. The doctor has given me sleeping tablets but I really don't want to go down that road. I am exhausted and I find I'm getting very depressed. This isn't  me as I never let things get me down but I find everything an effort. So sorry to be such a moaner as there's people worse off than me . Just hoping that someone can help with these pins and needles