Emily, I felt so sad reading about your nan's prognosis.  I know how distraught you feel, having been there with my own oarents and grandparents.  I , too, am terminally ill with wonderful grandchildren, mostly around your age.  I know that they have meltdowns (their parents tell me) but we see each other as often as we can and we make memories.    Sadly, all through our lives we have to face the deaths of our loved ones, and it is never the same.  Take one day at a time, don't think of tomorrow and what it will bring as it is never what we expect.  

Life isn't fair, having lost your dad too is a dreadful shock to your system.  Your little brother will need you so much, take care of each other.  We are always here. xx

Hi Emily

Sorry that your nan has cancer.

As well as coming here, you could also have a look at riprap.

This is a website for teenagers affected by cancer.

You can chat to others as well as find out information there.

Please let us know how you are getting on anytime you would like to talk about how you are feeling.

As Pauline4 has said, we are always here.

Best wishes

Jane

Emily - I send you a huge hug and I want to tell you that I am in awe of your emotional intelligence, maturity, perceptiveness and openness.  Your strength shines through - but sometimes, allow weakness and vulnerability because you are, and have, dealt with such difficult and traumatic situations.  Given your superb talent for writing - would your Nan appreciate you reading to her something you could write about all the fun times you have experienced together or spend time with your Nan making a collage of photos of great family times or just asking your Nan to tell you what you can do to make tomorrow fun/special/different?  These are all trite suggestions and I hope they spark off in you some much more original and appropriate thoughts which I suspect you have zillions of!  You are special - and you will get through this.

Sian