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My husband died of cancer Feb 24 2015. I don't know how to do this life without him. Nor one gets it. There are no help books for losing a husband. I'm sick of the psychological babble that tells me you wake up and you move on.

what crap.

everyday, I expect him to be here. The missing is worse. Not less.

I wasn't supposed to be without him.

he's my best friend. My lover. My partner in adventure. My sharer of faith. We did so much. We are now me, and it's not a good fit.

I thought I'd try this.

the only support group is put on by the hospice that helped him die. I really don't want to deal with them. I'm in a new town. New doctors. That don't know me. I'm one of those that have fallen through the cracks.

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    Hi Jerryswife,

    Welcome to this friendly and supportive forum. I am sorry to read how low you are feeling but can understand the reason for it. There are several people on here who are in a similar situation and I hope they will make contact with you.

    Take care, best wishes, Brian.

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    Hi, Jerryswife,  I can almost feel your pain, and I feel deeply for you.  It has only been a very short while since your husband died and you are bound to be feeling lost, angry and helpless.  My own husband died in his 30s over 30 years ago and I remember the anguish I felt as though it were yesterday.  You may feel that you have fallen through the cracks but there are thousands of us there with you.  Allow yourself time. And please come and talk to us whenever you want. With my very best wishes to you, x

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    Hi Jerryswife

    So sorry for your loss, it is difficult for people to understand unless they go through it

    Please, if you just want to scream, shout or cry get back on here

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    Hi Jerryswife,

    I can hear your pain and the grief your loss brings.  I lost my hubby of 37 years (best friend for 42) in January this year.  I found good people on this forum willing to listen, understand and offer support and hope you will feel that you can chat here whenever  you feel like you want to share.  Those who have not been through it rarely know what to say or do! I have had people cross the road because they do not know what to say. Hello would be a good start!  Moving forward is not that easy and I had the support of my GP and my children/grandchildren and few good friends who are supporting me still (of course with family we are all grieving together).  Nothing can take away the memories you hold in your heart but oh how many of us wish it could be so different.  Sending a virtual hug.Jules54

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    Hi Jerryswife,
    Do you have family and friends who can provide support to you at this time?
    I too lost my hubby last Oct so have faced a series of "firsts" on my own.  Next week will see me experience the first wedding anniversary on my own.  It would have been our 31st.
    I am fortunate in having a good support network of friends and the love and support of our son and his own family.
    The future we had planned, retirement etc has been ripped from us but we have to plod on, one day at a time, without our loved one here with us.
    I do find comfort knowing he is no longer in pain, dehabilitated by this cruel disease and know he would really be displeased if I did not try and enjoy what life has to offer me each day.
    I try and keep busy and get pleasure from gardening.
    Moving to a new town must not have been easy for you either.
    Please let us know how you are going, remember you are not alone.
    Hugs
    Kathy x
     

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