Hey, 

after extensive googling after my dads recent stomach cancer diagnosis I've always found myself reading people's story's on these forums and I thought I was finally time to join. 

After 3 months (or longer) of my dad suffering, losing weight we've finally received a stomach cancer diagnosis for my dad after being told on many occasions it was a virus.      My dad has a pet scan tomorrow and then we have to wait another week to find out the stage of the stomach cancer. I feel as though alls we've done is wait week after week for appointments, scans, endoscopes etc we had an appointment at the hospital yesterday where the doctor basically told us that if the cancer has spread to the pancreas they will just send my dad home to die, my dads took this hard and is thinking really negatively at the moment. He's told me he doesn't want to die and it's heartbreaking to hear. I can't help but think after the amount of time it's took and the severe pain that he's in that it's spread :( I can't bear to see my dad like this , he's in agony every time he eats. He's lost so much weight and yesterday he was laid on the bathroom floor, vomiting and shivering. My dad has always been strong, wise and well, a big guy and now I'm trying to have hope and be there for him. I'm only 23 and I can't imagine life without my dad. I have a daughter who is 1 and he HAS TO be in her life. He can't die. I could say so much more but this post is already too long. I don't know what I'm hoping for in posting this, I'm guessing I'm looking for someone to relate to this, or tell me there's hope. Thank you for reading and I apologise for the length I just feel like I'm at a loss and the waiting is driving me insane.