Hi, and welcome to the forum. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. For me, stroke first in 2023, then breast cancer with lumpectomy and radiotherapy at the end of last year. It's rough when things come together that way and I know what you mean about feeling normal. I'm so sorry this is happening to you. Do you have support from friends and family during this time and someone to talk to about it? We're here for you and you can always talk here. Gill xx

We are here for you. 

Hello Genbach,

having gone through chemo and radiotherapy for  a stage4 diagnosis l completely understand  your post.By necessity the treatment takes your body and mind to limits you never previously thought existed and could hardly comprehend how you could cope with it. Although l never spotted a kitchen sink,l would not have been surprised to have seen one at some stage.

One thing struck me and has stayed with me, coming at the end of 2.5 years of treatment and the start of a long slog of recuperation,.My Consultant telling me that after my final treatment that l was now occupying my "new normal". Whilst at the time that gave me a shiver of momentary unease, it took a while for the full implications of that that to fully sink in.

After some time l realised that fighting for what l had lost was getting in the way of embracing of what l had ,and preventing me from making the most of everyday. l realise that l am so much luckier than those whose unwelcome invader is more destructive than my visitor was, but the same truth in varying degrees applie to us all.

l have nothing else sadly to offer you apart from the wish that you somehow manage to take more of the good and less of the bad from your "new normal"

David

Hi David, thank you for your kind, understanding and positive reply. I have always been an outgoing , busy, happy go lucky person …I think this is why I’m finding this current situation so difficult… but onwards and upwards I say … I woke up to a beautiful sunny day , which at the moment is a huge bonus … thank you again for your kind words , very much appreciated… be proud of how far you’ve come ,and  what you’ve achieved, .. I wish you all the very best for the future