Hi for now i'll go by August girl.

I'm 19, soon to be 20 in august hence the name, currently a university student and working 2 part time jobs. At the moment i'm waiting for my mum to be diagnosed with cancer, she's been having pain in her stomach and blood loss for a few months and for the past month she has been on sick leave from work as advised by her doctor. The other week she had a gynecology appointment at the hospital, during this, the doctor discovered 2 lumps at the top where the ovaries/womb are. He said to my mum that he was 99.9% sure they were cancerous lumps so they did a biopsy, it's been a week and it is basically a waiting game at the moment waiting for the letter back to confirm it. 

I was shocked at first as anyone would be but I was strong and didn't cry or let my emotions show it wasn't until a few days ago I finally cracked. I have always been an emotional person ever since I was a child, i've constantly been called a worry worm and I overthink too much. Knowing that my mum might have this makes me angry, sad and anxious. I don't know how i'm meant to carry on with everyday life knowing that this horrible illness has gotten my mum, it's unfair. 

At the same time I suffer with my own health, I have a chronic heart condition, and constantly have to maintain what I do during the day otherwise I flare up easily. My second job is starting this week i'm not excited for it if anything I don't want to do it. yeah the extra money is nice but recently i've lost interest I won't be surprised if I end up leaving after a few months and just stick with my first job. 

I guess I just want to speak to people with similar experiences and how I can get help during this time.

Thanks