i am 16year old female and i constantly worry about my health. A lot of my concerns began in august when i had an existential crisis. Shortly after that i was terrified that anything would kill me. I would then begin googling symptoms ( i shouldn't i know but sometimes it can help) this only scared me more as i did fit some of the symptons of a brain tumor (headache , nausea blurred vision) all of these were a result of a panic attack at the time. This then continued on an off for the next 2 months. Some days i would feel fine and others i would think i was going to die. However, recently there have been fewer and fewer moments where i have felt fine. Even if no symptoms are showing i still worry that i could have a brain tumor or something secretly. However the more i then think about it, the worse the symptoms get as a result of anxiety.

I know the chances of me having a brain tumor as a teen are low but chances are never zero. As we are entering winter the cold weather has not helped much as my head hurts more often now and im sleeping less so that also adds to the headaches and possible symptom of fatigue. 

Sometimes i think my visions blurred ir doublebut i do have astigmatism and my glasses are often smudged and dirty so that could be the reason but i also cant tell if my vision is actually double or something or im just overthinking everything. 

A while ago i googled what could be making me feel this way like sometimes i would get short bursts of a headache and learnt that they are icepick headaches stemming from excessive stress and anxiety. However most of that stress is about health so it spirals into an endless cycle.

In maybe 2022 i also worried i could have a brain tumor and that only adds to my worries now. Because what if i did have a brain tumor then and still do now? What if i have left this untreated for so long? Im scared to go to a doctor to actually get checked for anything. I know getting an actual 'okay' from a doctor would help my stress a lot but what if its not okay. What if my anxiety is right? I am very scared of surgeries and anything were i would have to be knocked out and have no control. I know some tumors could be benign and slightly easy to remove with surgery but i would be terrified to have any kind of surgery especially on the brain. So if i had a brain tumour i would have to wait til it kills me cause i would be too scared to treat it. 

I went on a bit of a tangent there. Point is im terrified. Please can someone reassure me that im fine.