Hi all

please bear with me as I try and get this all out. 
I have been experiencing some bowel issues for over 9/10 months. Struggling to go to the toilet at all, as if I was unable to open my bowels independently. I went to my GP numerous times as I would end up severely constipated. They would give me numerous types of laxatives and eventually put me on 3 different types on repeat prescriptions for this. 
9 weeks ago I was so poorly with the constipation and pain, I was burping faecal smelling gas, was very dehydrated and ended up in A&E. 
There they took bloods, took my history, and did do a rectal exam but only to check for muscle tone. I was asked to come back to hospital the next day to have a CT scan and see a surgical Dr. This was done, the CT scan was not or could not go low enough, but the surgical doctor did another rectal exam and felt around this time, and he felt a mass. He then told me he would be referring me to have a colonoscopy urgently. We heard nothing and had to contact PALS as I was at home suffering. I had a sigmoidoscopy and they found an acute mass but couldn’t do a biopsy due to risk of bleeding. Yesterday I had a CT colonoscopy. Last night I had a call with an appointment to see a general surgeon in 2 weeks and a call today to make an appointment with my dr on Monday to talk about the results. This is some kind of two week pathway. I am now terrified they have found cancer. I am 41 and have 4 children. I feel I have lost months and this could have been growing away in me. X