Im Nick, Im 52 and live alone - I hadn't felt right in a certain area for a year, lost 2  stone in several months, been fatigued alot, so went to my GP a year ago and basically she did nothing ..... No tests or anything, just did blood tests and urine which came back normal ....went back to the same doctor a couple of times and still not really done a thing....

Slowly been feeling worse over the past year, losing more weight, luckily I moved house 5 months ago so a new doctor's surgery and new doctor ...

Last Saturday...  Well I found a small lump on my right testicle Ernie and my left testicle has felt weird and solid for a while so I saw my new doctor 6 days ago.

..I explained my feelings above to my new doctor and he sent me straight to A&E to get checked as a medical emergency, he also warned me I may have to have an operation.......

I had tests on Monday and 5 doctors examine me, which I guessed wasn't a good sign.

I had an ultrasound scan last Wednesday  and was told straightaway that i definitely have testicular cancer in Burt my left testicle and they think my right is a cyst......so Ernie's ok for now !

I had a CT scan and pre op two days ago, although I haven't been told what stage the cancer is at .. I haven't even spoken to the doctor about the CT which I thought a bit odd....also I've not had any information or help from anybody yet.

I kind of knew / have known something was wrong and when I was told it was cancer I didn't feel upset, didn't and haven't cried, I just said ok, it is what it is to the doctor, I have no control over it and  just want to fight it and live for as long as I can. 

Is this normal to feel like this ? 

The only feeling I have is being totally annoyed and angry  that a year ago my original GP did nothing   .... But that will be a job for a solicitor at a later date.....