Bowie cancer returned to my peritoneum

Hello everyone, I was diagnosed with bowel cancer in June 2024 and had a right hemicolectomy followed by harrowing chemotherapy. A year later I had a routine CT scan and was diagnosed as terminal as the cancer had returned to my abdomen. In my peritoneum. I’m due to see my oncologist again on Friday and this is to discuss treatment going forward. I may be able to have a very serious operation in Basingstoke, I live in the North East, this operation isn’t a cure it’s to extend life. Or I may have Chemotherapy until it stops working. 
As you can imagine I’m starting to become very frightened of the future. My husband has Vascular Dementia and Type1 Diabetes with complications. 

A lot of this is fear of the unknown and how much time I have left either with or without treatment. I’m sorry for the lengthy introduction. 
thank you for reading. 

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