So sorry to hear you have been through a rough time with treatment. Cancer has touched my family several times with my dad being the most recent. All I can say is that you are the most important person in this and to gather all the information, counselling and support available to you and use those experiences to decide what is right for you. Mental health support is so important as you will need strength to deal with the consequences of any decision so prioritise your well-being from all aspects. If your family truly care for you I hope they will support whatever you decide. Best wishes. ️