Hi everyone

So very long story short I have been caring for my partner who is terminally ill with cancer for the last 18 months. I started getting some pain from what I thought was a pile recently but saw a consultant last Friday who thinks it may be cancer. Still have to get scans and biopsy done but my head is spinning. Trying so hard not to think that everything my partner has gone through is going to happen to me but how the heck do you forget the side effects of chemo, stoma ops and the news there is nothing they can do.

I know it's early days but as a pessimist it's really hard not to feel like you know what's gonna happen and how awful it's going to be.

Sorry for the negativity xx