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LisaR1870
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Hello I'm Lisa.  I am 54 years old and have approximately 1year left to live.

I am so sorry but I am feeling helpless, frightened and scared.  The bad dreams and thoughts are plaguing me right now.  Nighttime is always the worse.

I am surrounded by a loving family and  have amazing friends.

I have read everywhere to make the most of every single day, and believe me I do try.  I just can't seem to settle or stop the tears.

I was so sure I would be okay.  When I heard the news, inoperable and terminal I just can't process it right.  I was until January 4th a secondary school teacher.  Now I feel everything was taken away from me in 1 week.

Please somebody tell me I'm not alone.  I know deep down there is huge suffering out there and I'm being ungrateful, selfish and bitter but that isn't really like me, or I didn't think I was.j

II'm just scared....

Lisa

  • Hello LisaR1870,

    I'm sorry to hear this. I can't imagine how this is affecting you and your family, but it's lovely to know that you've got your family and friends behind you. You are certainly not alone in how you're feeling and in situations like this, it's important that you lean on those close to you when you feel you need it. This can help you and those around you process this news. Your medical team are also there to support you and we have information on our website around coping with news that you're dying, which you can refer to at anytime. I think for all of us, it's easier for our heads to runaway with thoughts than it is to stay in the present and make the most of each day, but please be kind to yourself and it's ok if the tears flow sometimes.

    I hope this is helpful in some way,

    Moderator Anastasia

  • Offline in reply to Moderator Anastasia

    Thank you so much for replying.  It's just so dark for me right now.  I want to be more positive but, I just can't get there.

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