Hi all. I can relate to you all with the feelings of anxiety, I found a lump on 15th August and was sent by my GP for an urgent appointment to the breast care centre within days where I had an ultrasound, mammogram and biopsies and was told on that day that I either had something called fibrocystic disease or breast cancer. I've since been told that it is cancer and I have an appointment with a consultant on Wednesday but it seems like my entire life has come crashing to a halt. Surreal describes it perfectly, I haven't left the house, I rarely get dressed, I keep my curtains closed during the day, I ignore the doorbell and most phone calls, my normally spotless home has turned into a pig sty, I just can't seem to get out of this slump and I've completely withdrawn from the world, the thought of having to go out causes quite severe panic attacks. My daughter bought me a ring that has little silver circles wrapped around the front that you can spin and that's the only thing that I've found that helps to calm my breathing and stop my heart jumping out of my chest, it's quite soothing, very simple but effective. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to say where it came from but it rhymes with glamazon and it was extremely cheap. I've had so many lumps over the years, all of them fibroadenomas, harmless tumours, until now and I really thought it was just going to be another one of those and I've been in a state of shock ever since I found out it isn't. In the past I've had to wait a while for appointments but this seemed different from the moment my GP felt the lump, everything was rushed but I still didn't want to believe it could be cancer. I wish all of you the very best of luck with everything and would really like to hear how you're all getting on, hopefully healthy and well. My thoughts are with you all.
So much to deal with. I am sending strength and hope you find tommorow is reassuring although can only imagine this will also feel extremely daunting. A route to recovery xxxx Stay strong and do whatever helps at this time.
Thank you, I'm totally terrified but it is what it is. So glad I found this site, you guys rock. It's 6pm and I'm off to bed upstairs ... reading helps me to disassociate with my scary thoughts.
Must remember the mantra ... if I have cancer I will beat it ! X
I am here regardless of my results x We are in this together now. Thank you for sharing. Keep in touch x “I WILL beat this” I AM strong x Thank you for your kind words. What a lovely person you are x
Hi all, I hope everyone is as well as can be expected. I'm waiting for a call from the hospital with a date for my operation which will be within the next 10 days. I'll be having radiotherapy afterwards and I'll have to take Tamoxifen for 5 years and I'll probably need a few more operations but my doctor is really positive about the the outcome and so am I. I'll let you know how it goes. Keep in touch x
Oh bless you, you've not had an easy run have you. But don't worry about potential worse to come in the future, you've already proved you've got this. You are a true warrior.
I went for my second biopsy today because they found more suspicious cells deeper into my breast.
But I've always been a very stubborn/obstinate type of person, which my youngest son reminded me this weekend
Hi LianHo Thank you for update, you are an absolute Warrior! Reading your message I can feel your positivity and glad you have a plan now. Thank you so much for update. I do think of you & Carole often. I will update when I get some news. For now I am still in limbo, constant pain as a reminder. Will be glad to get some answers. Take very big care. Amazing you! Let us know how you are doing as and when good for you x
CarolS1 Love your words here, so supportive and I can detect your humour! Admirable considering what you have done today. I hope you get a clear plan soon. I know you are both knocking spits of super woman right now. Thinking of you x Good to hear from you. X
