Hi I just need to write all this down. I was diagnosed with anal cancer T2 one lymph node possibly two on 23rd July, it had taken since February for the diagnosis and I had probably had it for a year prior as I didn't go to the doctor. They have told me it's curable which I have to go with and I start treatment on the 30th September. Chemo at the beginning then radio for 5.5 weeks then repeat chemo, i can only have 50% chemo as my dpd levels are low. The scans also showed I have an adrenal gland tumour which at the moment they are saying is probably benign but having to have more tests, they also found an issue with my shoulder which again they have said they think will be fine but more scans required. I am petrified of the treatment and the side effects even the ones they told me I won't get which makes no sense. I feel very alone, everyone around me thinks I'm handling it all well which most of the time I think I am but I do put on a front.