Hi I'm new to this page I have stage 4 metastatic estrogen breast lymph node bone and lung cancer.Really don't know what to say my head is in a really dark place.Can't face the world panic attacks and anxiety missing hospital appointments ignoring the phone.I'm just so scared to attend appointments in case it's travelled.I can't bear to look in mirror as before I was stage 4 I had a mastectomy my breast removed.Told they had got rid of it.Boom 2 years later lump under my arm its back with a vengeance.Feel cheated empty alone unwomanly hate the world.I'm a mum to 4 beautiful children and Nan to two beautiful grandchildren.Since finding out this news nothing can hurt me nomore.I came to this page hopefully looking to chat someone that understands.I started chemotherapy which was so intense as due to e sterogen before chemo a needle has to be placed in my leg for 5 mins.Then chemo 1st time had a major reaction so was stopped which will always stick with me.Second time I lost my hair after two rounds.I stoped treatment as dramatic weight loss made me really ill.So sorry for big intro that's me.But do please get in touch and thank you for reading.
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