I'm pleased to hear that your operation went well and that the cancer had not spread. Chemo doesn't sound pleasant at all but I do hope it's not as bad as you anticipate. I've seen some people on here who have a much higher FIT score (400). Is this significant? Do you know what this means? I've assumed that the higher the score the more likely it is to be something nasty. I'm probably wrong though and a positive FiT is exactly that and it needs checking. I'm absolutely gutted that he is going through this because he has already been through so much recently. He has suffered from depression for the last 20 years with self harm and suicidal thoughts creeping in during the last several months. He attempted to take his life a few weeks ago and had to have surgery. Now this. I will do anything to keep him safe and I just pray that there is finally good news tomorrow after his colonoscopy because I don't know how he will deal with a cancer diagnosis. I know I will go to pieces, even though I want to be strong for him because that's what he needs right now. 

Have you had a date for your first chemo yet and if not, are you expecting it to be soon?

i high Fit score doesn’t always mean cancer there plenty of other less serious things it can be , your husband does seem to be in a bad way his stress levels must be over the top with this now , i i am just taking things in my stride and believe everything is going to be ok and so far so good , i hope he has a good outcome and it’s nothing to worry about it must take its toll on you as well , let us know how he gets on , wishing you both luck 

Thanks so much for the best wishes. He seems more anxious about the actual test rather than the result at the moment. I'm sure it will be fine. Have to remain positive for now.  I will keep you posted.

Take care of yourself.

Hi LunarLou, 

I am sorry to hear your husband is going through this anxious wait at the moment and I hope that you will get some good news - best of luck for the colonoscopy tomorrow. Waiting to find out what is going on is so difficult and I thought I would share with you these helpful tips to help you cope while waiting for important news.  It's good that they are doing all the necessary investigations and hopefully you will find out the cause of his issues soon - rest assured though that there can be so many different conditions other than cancer that can present such symptoms. Having to deal with this stress at the moment while suffering from depression must be really hard especially as you mentioned he has been having suicidal thoughts in the recent months and even attempted to take his life. I am sure that your support by his side has meant a lot to him and you seem to be so caring and a real source of strength for him but if you feel it all gets a bit much or his anxiety gets worse as you are waiting for these results, don't hesitate to get in touch with his GP and mention his history of suicidal thoughts and his long-term depression. Your doctor will I am sure have some good advice for him to help him get through the next few days when the waiting and uncertainty can make anyone so anxious. 

I will also mention the Samaritans site which you can get in touch about anything that’s troubling you or your husband can also pick up the phone 24 hours a day every single day of the year and talk to someone if he is feeling down. The number to call is 11612 and it's totally free. Anxiety UK is another great resource which will provide support in dealing with anxiety and I thought I would also mention Andy's Man Club which focuses specifically on men's mental health and offer over 120 free support groups nationwide. 

I hope this helps a little. I noticed that you are getting some wonderful insights on this thread from other lovely members like Gordgrc so I am glad you are not alone and have some support through this forum. As Gordgrc said, this stress and everything you've been through recently must be taking its toll on you. 

Keeping everything crossed for you for good results and that everything goes well during the colonoscopy appointment! 

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator