Hi June I’m sorry to hear you are having to deal with this alone. As newly diagnosed with the same thing as you I have found this forum really helpful. I’m fortunate to have a supportive husband, but I still find this group really informative and helpful and it’s reassuring in some way to have others are in the same situation. Please feel free to message me if it helps. Stay strong, stay away from google and take care of yourself. 

Hi June I’m sorry to hear you are having to deal with this alone. As newly diagnosed with the same thing as you I have found this forum really helpful. I’m fortunate to have a supportive husband, but I still find this group really informative and helpful and it’s reassuring in some way to have others are in the same situation. Please feel free to message me if it helps. Stay strong, stay away from google and take care of yourself. 

Oh thank you for replying to me. I have now to make some decisions to make on my own. Because I’m so alone in this world I doubt anyone would miss me. Thats the honest truth. Anyone who cared for me is already dead. You are a really good human being for replying to my msg. I wish the very best for you. You are so fortunate to have a supportive husband to guide you towards those decisions. I’ve only got me. More and more I am thinking of letting this disease take its course. Am I wrong? I’m not happy being so alone so why prolong my unhappiness. Anyway thank you so much x

Hi June, sorry to hear your diagnosis, I have colorectal spread to liver so am on palliative care. I live alone and it's a lonely place to be with no one to talk to. Today I went to an emergency dentist only to be told my teeth are going to fall out because of the chemo. I've always looked after myself and this is devastating to hear,  I can understand how your feeling because I'm having same thoughts, do I not have anymore treatment and let it run it's course.?It's going to be a hard decision to make, if I see you post I'll always try to reply as it's nice to speak to people who are going through same thing. 

Hello Kitty, I think you’re so brave. You clearly have accepted what is happening to you and I can only hope are not in pain. I can’t really believe what is happening to me yet. I keep hoping it’s some kind of mistake. I’m in denial just now because last year at this time I was in good health. I get so distressed and feel sorry for myself sometimes. Then I realise there are people like you so accepting and I should feel like that. I wasn’t prepared for this and I should have been. I nursed both my parents to their deaths but I thought I would live forever. I too have taken care of myself in comparison to others and it feels so unfair. Today I noticed wrinkles on my body because of the weight loss and now it’s showing up on the outside that I’m ill. Can’t be in denial any longer. It’s late at night and I can’t sleep. I just wanted to thank you. x