First time I’ve ever done or joined anything like this before. Not sure how it works, plus so many different reasons and issues in my life past and present, I’m not sure a forum exists that matches my needs, I say that in complete honesty. I’m sure many of us out there are the same, but cancer has had the biggest impact on my loved ones than anything else, to be honest the loss of a close member of my family, her son young full of life, has shaken me, I can’t come to terms with her loss, how brave she’s been, I hurt for my loss but hers is so much bigger, she’s so brave, but I can’t come to terms with it taking the young, logic goes out the window when dealing with such loss and pain.