Hello Survivorhere,

                                as someone who escaped from stage4 bowel and liver cancer l have always felt privilege and responsibility to live my life to the fullest l possibly can, carrying all the hopes and wishes of those who shared treatment with me but sadly could not make it through. Never looking back l carry them with me which is no burden.

l am sorry to read you cannot see to find your way to coming to terms with the acceptance that as one of the special people that make it through ,the only guilt you should carry is not making the most of the life in front of you, it must be hard, but hopefully one day we will come to terms with the reality,

                                                                                                                                                                                          david

Hi David

Thank you for the reply, I know I'm blessed someone has given me a second chance at life and I'd been taking it for a while but when people close it friends are dying of cancer I just don't cope, I hate being a survivor sometimes and sometimes I wish I could swap with one of them but then that's selfish, it's a horrible confusing life that I lead as best I can, I hope you remain to enjoy your life and live it to the fullest.

Hi David

Thank you for the reply, I know I'm blessed someone has given me a second chance at life and I'd been taking it for a while but when people close it friends are dying of cancer I just don't cope, I hate being a survivor sometimes and sometimes I wish I could swap with one of them but then that's selfish, it's a horrible confusing life that I lead as best I can, I hope you remain to enjoy your life and live it to the fullest.