Hello all,

I've let's just joined. I'm looking to make sense of all this.

I found a testicle suddenly grew, went hard and became painful 2 days before Christmas. I went to A&E to be told it was a torsion, I needed an "urgent" scan, then sent home with antibiotics. The "urgent" scan was then scheduled after I chased and chased for later this month, then finally this coming Tuesday after complaining a lot.

I stopped the antibiotics and swelling went down, but not fully. Pain was bearable, but certainly "there". Then last night i noticed it felt "different" and decided to use my works private Healthcare, which I am lucky enough to have. Was referred straight away today, bloods done, scan done.

During the scan I could see a sudden change in the imaging specialists face and tone. Then at the end, he showed me what he sees... a large cancer siting there staring back at me.

I had to make the long trip home alone. Had to tell my wife. I have young children. This can't possibly be real?

I have to see another specialist tomorrow. Scans on the rest of my body. Have to have my testicle removed and tested.

How did this happen? What do I do now? I feel like I'm going to wake up and it was a dream.

I know the prospects for this cancer is good, but I can't help feeling like I've been handed a jail sentence. I've got this alien thing living in me and can't do anything about it.