Hello,
I guess I’m here to get a few things out of my head as this is all new to us and we haven’t told any friends or family until we know exactly what we are dealing with.
My partner went for a colonoscopy on Tuesday where they found cancer in the left hand side of his colon. We were told he will need to have a CT scan to see what’s going on and if the cancer has spread elsewhere. We are trying to remain positive and not think the worst case scenario but it feels like we are living in limbo at the moment.
My partner has been absolutely amazing and strong since the news - I am an absolute mess and feel so selfish that I keep getting upset which in turn gets him upset. We are so close, he’s my bestest friend, and we also have a business together so we spend all our time together. He’s been so open and honest with how he’s feeling which I am so glad about. I just feel like our whole world is falling apart and there’s so much uncertainty for the future and I feel helpless that there is nothing I can do to fix this.
I hate that he’s going through this, he keeps apologising to me for putting me through this which is breaking my heart as it’s him that’s going through it and I just want to make sure I can do my best and be strong for him.
We are waiting until he’s had the scans and we have spoken to the specialist until we tell our families and friends.
I guess I’m here to write it down to try and help through this wave of emotion I’m feeling.