Hi

I f eel so lonely and scared. We have struggled during our 4 year relationship. He has no emotion and shows no empathy. Even now when the going is tough. I thought that he maybe would try harder. Feeling so scared of what lies ahead. 

I went for my appointment on Saturday which he knew well in advance. He never works on Saturdays then the day before the appointment he said he needed to go to work on the same Saturday as the appointment.

He knew how important my appointment was and said he'll be back in time. He knew I needed that support before my appointment as well as during and after my appointment too. He phoned me 2.5 hours before my appointment , started for no reason and swore at me then put the phone down on me.

He never turned up to my appointment and never once rang or messaged me to see how it went. I went through this all alone.

the next day, he rang me very early in the morning but I was sleeping. he then messaged and not once asked how i was. kept going on about how I don't support him as he lives alone and its ok for me because I have my family near by.

He went on to say that he got a time and a half pay for working on the Saturday and he wasnt going to not work - bearing in mind, hes declined every single one in the past 1.5 years.

I messaged him back saying that hes not once asked how my appoint went. I even told him I had breast cancer. he completely ignored it and said im selfish because I dont support him with his job. I kept repeating the same message how I have breast cancer but and not once asked how I am. he ignored this and said that hes not supporting someone who cant be there for him and its simple. His words.

he then tells me to take care and how hes not having me blaming him for going to work.

A part of me thinks hes done this on purpose. Ive always helped him when hes had issues and feel like im not getting support. He always belittles me and not once asked if im going to be ok.

I feel sick, haven't slept and hurt that he could be like this.

Is this really my fault?