I was diagnosed with esophagus cancer May 2022.

I lost my mum October 21, her older sister passed away the day of her funeral. November 21 my dad was diagnosed with asbestos related lung cancer, he passed away March 22. I was getting a lot of heartburn and acid reflux mentioned it to doctor in passing. I put it down to stress, she sent me for tests, mid April I had the camera down throat. They told me then they suspected cancer. Officially diagnosed in May.

July I started a course of chemo before my operation in September. I should have another course of chemo after the operation, this didn't happen due to complications.

What happened, a ten day stay in hospital turned into seven weeks. Two days after the operation I had a cardiac arrest and was put into a coma, I subsequently had a stroke whilst in the coma. I don't remember anything between sitting in waiting room until someone stood over me asking who the prime minister was. I lost eight days.

Can't remember what it's called but something was taking its time to heal, so I was dripped fed for six weeks, nothing by month and stuck in a hospital bed, not able to turn round or sit up without help.

I was eventually allowed home and had to learn how to eat and use my right arm again both are still work in progress. I've gone from sixty seven kilos to thirty nine.

The surgeon is pretty sure he got all the cancer.

My focus was to get back to work and normality. I did get back to work earlier this year. Now I feel I've made a big mistake. I'm struggling with work , making silly mistakes. Some days I'm not able to get in. I'm physically exhausted, all I do is go work, on my days off I don't get even get dressed, I don't go out or contact friends. I'm struggling more now than when I was having treatment. I'm thinking it's time I stopped working but not sure I can afford it or that I'm just feeling sorry for myself and giving in.