Thank  you Eun.  It is funny you saying that about our creator.  I have always felt that God has a sick sense of humour.  I have had, what i would say a hard life and came through it a lot stronger and much happier.  Then the Cancer landed on my door step.  First thing i asked him was  ' Have i not been through enough already'.

The only answer i could hear was that he would not have chosen me if i was not strong enough to handle it.  

I think if i said to people that it was a gift, they would think i was barmy.  

I am going to get through this, maybe a bit weak and broken at first but i know my strength will return again, hopefully stronger then before,  If we are not tested how are we to know how strong we really are. 

xxxx

Hi Hayley,

You are certainly never alone, now that you have found this site. It is hard to accept help when you have always been so independent, but i's your turn to be on the receiving end now and I would advise you to accept all the help that's offered. You have been through major surgery and it does take time to recover. I hope that you are managing ok with the Tamoxifen. There is no point in worrying how you will cope with each new journey, as it seems to be very much an individual thing - some seem to sail through this treatment, whilst many struggle. Has there been any mention of when radiotherapy will start for you - naturally you need to heal first.

I hope that you are getting the love and support from your partner, that you need to help you put this behind you in time.

I am glad to hear that you intend to share your experience with others here on this site, as it means a lot to those who are setting out on, or struggling with their journeys.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx