Breast Cancer, just had second lumpectomy. Feeling very low

Good morning,  I'm 58 and have recently undergone a 2nd lumpectomy with the removal of glands/lymph nodes.  This was completely unexpected insofar as I did not take onboard that the first operation might not be sufficient.  Safe to say, mentally, I'm not in a great place waiting on the next pathology results in a week (hopefully) to decide next stage treatment. Advanced apologies for this selfish splurge.  Just feeling very low.